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Friday, February 11, 2011

A little rewind.

This was my first post--published July 30, 2010.  No one was reading me then so I wanted to repost it because I thought it was kinda funny.  A couple AWESOME people *did* comment on it after they started following me though.  :)  

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A few weeks ago I started looking into Lap Band surgery.

Over Christmas 2009, my husband, son, and I were celebrating the holidays with his family in Colorado.  We were setting up our Wii characters---you know, selecting hair color & style, eye color, outfits (etc!) to compose your "mini-me."

Blonde hair?  Check!  Hazel eyes?  Check.  Long lustrous girlie eyelashes?  Check.  Cute outfit?  Mmm...it's not real life, but I did the best I could....

Then my five year old niece chimed in, "You need to make it bigger because you're big."

[insert the sound of a record scratching!]

Ouch.

I was actually 21 weeks pregnant with our second child.

But still.

F*ck.

And for the record, I'll be damned if I have to bowl with a fat Wii character.  Being fat in real life is depressing enough.  I think I'll let my Wii character live in Fantasy Land.

And if that didn't hurt bad enough....

Fast forward a few months.  Our son was born on May 1, 2010 and my husband's family came out to visit in June.  I was sitting on the couch and my niece (the same one!) said, "How come your neck hangs down like that?"

Ummm, I believe she was referring to my double chin.

That's it.  I'm not pregnant anymore.  I've got no excuse.

These extra pounds must go before my own two sons can say something so hurtful about my weight.  Right now they are innocent and love me for me.  They don't see my size.  Eventually though, they will. The thought of them pointing out my size crushes me.

What was your 'that's it' moment?

7 comments:

  1. Wow. I know that would sting. My "that's it" moment was the first time I had to ask for a seat belt extender on an airplane. My hubby has always been very big so he was used to it. I just started bawling right there in my seat. The poor flight attendant must've thought I was nuts. I weeped (quietly) the whole flight.

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  2. I would have told her she shouldn't talk to people like that, it's rude. :( My boys told me I have a huge butt, and I blogged about it. I was re-reading my blogs yesterday and it was mighty depressing. lol

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  3. Oh, wait, my a-ha moment was when I saw photos of myself at my twins' 3rd birthday. I'm gonna have to show that pic in my next blog. *SHUDDER!*

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  4. I know that would be an eye opener for me too!! But you have made such a difference already with or without surgery!

    My moment..really was in the depths of misery after my second miscarriage. I have had a few before that but really it was then. I felt like I was never going to have children and that why was this happening to me?? Then I thought, I am not unhappy I have a great life..but lets work harder at being a better me. If I can't have kids by myself then I want to be skinny. Some of my reasons are a little vain but it's the truth.

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  5. That's hard! My 12 year old pulled the "Chins joke" out on me pre surgery. You know the one....you have more chins than the phone book. Man that stung. He always cracked jokes about my weight (can you say disrespect???) He learned it from his father. That is reason #1 why his father is also known as my EX husband! Needless to say my double (triple) chin is now gone...he hasn't said a word about that! Kids never notice the good things, only the bad.

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  6. Oh no! I hate those moments. My neice asked me if I was pregnant last Christmas. :) She didn't mean anything by it. I had already decided to have LB, so that wasn't my moment. It had come months before when I could barely fit in my seat at the Mavericks game. Yuck!!

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  7. My aha moment occurred when I finally realized that if I did not take care of my obesity, not only would my health suffer, but, so would my family and the people I love. This decision was about 25 years overdue, but I am doing it now. Just found your blog and will be back to check in. Michele at http://ruminationsasiuncoverthewomanwithin.blogspot.com/

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