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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Oh My Word.

Word for 2011!  And a poem too.

When my husband graduated with his MSN recently, my parents sent him in a Graduation card in the mail.  Let me go ahead and preface this by saying I spent the entire month of December consumed with thoughts of, "What happens if the insurance company denies me for surgery?"  I'm sure everyone goes through this....but it's what I'm going through right now.  What if.  What if?!  The whole idea of getting lap band is what motivated me to lose 25 pounds so far.  It's been the life raft that I've been clinging to.  What if the insurance company rips it awayt?  Can I swim?  Will I drown?

And then, if I do get the lap band, can I do it?  Will I be successful?  Or will I be one of the "failures" my PCP spoke about when she discouraged me from moving forward with getting surgery?  Because that would really be humiliating!  "Everyone gains it back eventually," she said.  I vented about that visit here on my blog.  And that's when Sherry came across that post somehow.  Thank goodness.  Until then I hadn't discovered how to connect with others going through the same thing.    

Anyway, so, in the middle of December when I was consumed with all of this self-doubt my husband gets this graduation card in the mail and it's like God speaking to me.   It said,

"I believe
                 the most
                            important
single thing, 
beyond discipline
                    and creativity
is daring 
             to dare."

Only it wasn't God.  It was just Maya Angelou printed on a Hallmark card (for $2.79).

So, my word is dare.

Dare:  to have the necessary courage or boldness for something;be bold enough

12 comments:

  1. What a great word - and Maya Angelou is a genius!! Dare to dare - I love, love, love that!!

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  2. I love love love it too! Fabulous word!

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  3. I felt the same way when I was waiting on my approval. Even if you don't get your approval just remember that you are losing weight for you!

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  4. Great word! And I can tell you'll be successful - I mean you've lost 25 lbs on your own, imagine how much you'll lose with the help of the band! :)

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  5. oh, man I better get busy and pick my word for 2011- everyone is taking the good ones! :)

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  6. I really don't think you need to worry about not making it once banded. Look at what you've done on your own so far! You have it in you to do it, and the band is just a device that will help you along the way. Awesome word choice!

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  7. Love the poem. I hope you get good news about the surgery. My whole intent for the band was to keep the weight off. I knew if I buckled down I could lose the weight but as the other 40 times, it would have come back. If they look at your start weight you should be good.to go. But again, it is hard not to worry. Here's sending you good vibes.

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  8. Awesome word! I guess you can say when I went to that first seminar - I was daring to put myself first and that's what I'm doing now!

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  9. Dare is an excellent word. Lap Band Surgery is an elective surgery...we made the proactive choice to dare to make a difference in our lives. Empowering word...Hallmark is underrated!!!!

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