Lately, I've been doing a LOT of thinking. No matter what scenario I run in my mind, the answer always ends as a question mark and I can't make a decision. Do I look past the flaws of one option and try to be happy? Or do I try to find happiness elsewhere?
I just can't figure it out. Do I want my son in morning preschool? Or afternoon?
Okay, okay, that's my lame attempt at humor. But this is stressing me out.
Remember I was hoping to win the lottery? The free-public-preschool-lottery?
We lost. Sniff sniff. Pennsylvania had to cut school funding to balance the budget so there were even less slots available than in previous years.
After finding out (back in May, I think), my husband and I decided that we would just take our son to Parent's Morning Out (a program at our church).
It's affordable. It's nearby. Both of our children are old enough to attend. There's no commitment and you can drop them off any day of the week without planning in advance.
But there's less structure.
At the last minute (2 days ago) I suddenly realized I want him in a "real" preschool.
So I scrambled. There are two church preschools with a couple slots left.
One school that's super close (1 mile away) has an afternoon slot available from 12:15 to 3:00.
Another school, about 2 miles away, has a morning slot (9-12).
What to do?
The advantage of the afternoon slot is that the school is closer. And in the winter, when there are 2 hour delays for snow days, the afternoon class will still be open. Morning classes are just plain canceled with no refund.
The advantage of the morning slot is that it's just a better time of day (for a 3 year old).
I know that 1 mile vs 2 miles doesn't sound like much but I live in a very urban neighborhood that has a LOT of traffic in the morning and several stop lights. So 2 miles could theoretically take 15 minutes in the morning. Right now my son is attending a camp about 3.5 miles away and it takes me 20 minutes each way.
So I'm conflicted. Right now my son takes naps in the afternoon (generally 3-4pm). Occasionally 2-3pm. Sometimes not at all.
Honestly, I'd prefer the afternoon slot but I wonder if I'm being selfish.