Well the good news is my cholesterol is perfect.
The bad news is that I might be disqualified from getting lap band. :(
My BMI was less than 40 when I started this process so I need two co-morbidities for my insurance to cover the costs of surgery. I have high BP and high cholesterol. Or so I thought! I've always had high cholesterol but I recently had blood drawn. When I checked my results on-line I saw that my cholesterol was 149. Ugh! I cannot ever recall my cholesterol being less than 200! It's usually around 210. WTF. I hope this doesn't disqualify me.
I have a history of gestational diabetes so I'm hoping that will count in my favor.
I feel a little defeated. If I'd only gained about 10 pounds before starting to lose weight, or made an appointment the second I hit 220, or if I'd only loaded up my pockets with lead. The what if's are killing me! Because then, I would have qualified automatically with a BMI of 40. But it's too late for that now.
So I'm struggling with negative thoughts today. On one hand, I feel like I'm doing great. I've even wondered if I can or should do this without the band. I had decided it was better to go ahead and get it. Now I'm realizing that even if I don't qualify, I need to find a way to continue this lifestyle change without it. I'm going to have to find some strength somewhere to get through it instead of throwing myself a pity party complete with cake and ice cream.
